I can already hear some of you laughing and snickering to yourselves. Especially those of you who might wish you were single... but that's a blog for another time, another place.
I made a bad decision yesterday. And just before you start laughing and snickering again... YES, I make bad decisions every day I'm sure. Or at least a couple times a week. Just most of the time, my bad decisions have to do with eating one more cookie or sleeping in instead of getting up on time for work. This one might take this week's cake.
I e-mailed the Man-Child.
Yes, I imaged the scary music playing too.
But instead of going on and on about my bad decisions and the ways I wish God would make it all up to me, I'm just going to head back to the old school. Way back when, I used to post lists of things I had learned. Time to get back to basics...
So this time around, here's my list: Things I Have Learned About Singleness
1) It gets lonely. I know about half of you are thinking Duh! while the other half is feeling some combination of pity and sympathy. Please don't look at me with the puppy-dog eyes. It's not that bad.
2) It's hard to find really good friends who are in the same life-place, BUT those friends are for-lifers. It's bittersweet, but more sweet than bitter.
3) People quit asking you when you're going to get married or have children because by this point they've already decided that you're much more interested in your career than in having a family. It's sooooo not true, but it seems to be the norm.
4) Careers are easier to establish, take seriously, and manage. It's funny to hear myself say it, but I have a career. It's like making a lifetime commitment to be able to provide for myself. I'm in a line of work that I'm sure I'll be doing until that day comes where I can't work anymore (and I'll be praisin' Him all the way home that day!)... and that's a loooonnng time to love what you do!
5) MY GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME. Are we sensing a theme here? I know it seems like I bring this up a lot, but I feel like someone reading this (ahem... besides myself) needs to hear it as much as I do! I could read all of the When God Writes Your Love Story stories ever written, but it doesn't mean as much to me as knowing... and I mean REALLY knowing... that my God will take care of me. So I have to keep reminding myself that He's enough. He was enough in high school when I didn't have a date to my senior prom. He was enough all the way through college when my friends were meeting their husbands and marrying their true loves. He was enough when I broke it off with the Golfer and the Engineer and the Man-Child, all because He couldn't approve. And He's still enough. Still today. Still tomorrow. Still next week. And if I'm lucky enough to find a Godly man and someday marry him, my God will still be enough.
And that's the best thing of all about being single. I know that I know that I know that my God will take care of me. No matter what, He's enough.
I've had enough of living life for only me,
and reaching just for the things that keep destroying me.
So sick of envying the lives of so many I see,
somehow believing that they have what I need.
My God's enough for me.
This world has nothing I need.
In this whole life I've seen
my God's enough for me.
I can't explain why I suffer though I live for You.
Those who deny You - oh, they have it better than I do.
Cover my eyes now so that my heart can finally see
that in the end only You mean anything.
My God's enough for me.
This world has nothing I need.
In this whole life I've seen
my God's enough for me.
Who have I in heaven but You?
Nothing I desire but You.
My heart may fail, but not You.
You are mine forever.
Who have I but You?
-Psalm 73 (My God's Enough) by BarlowGirl
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